dreaming
well it took me two cigarettes to get home tonite
and i think i might need three
just to get myself to sleep
and i cant keep my mind from thinking about you
when all i want to do is rewind myself
and suprise myself
with a few more hours of sleep

please dont wake me when i'm dreaming
i might just be dreaming about you
and i dont want to lose that moment
of losing you

well its four am
and i'm sorry that i'm still awake
to keep you up so late
i just cant help the fact
that i want to call you up
and talk to you til the sun shines underneath my door

i dont want to wake you when youre dreaming
you might just be dreaming about me
and i dont want you to lose that moment
of losing me
*************

i thought about sitting you down
to tell you
all thats here to say
inside my head
but instead

its better for me to single out my emotions
and write them down
on paper

if youre not here
then i dont want to be
i dont want to feel
this kind of lonely any longer

from the moment i saw you
til the moment i said goodbye
last nite on the phone
its always been
a step close to heaven
in my direction
so i dont want to say goodbye
i am here to stay

youre a million miles away
and to me thats just too far
i cant stand this day by day
i want to be with you anyways

*************

i'm sorry for this situation
i'm sorry for all i did wrong in your direction
its me and always will be
i'm sorry you wont take me out there
for all the problems i am to you
i am to me as well
but what you dont love
someone else will

its funny how i didnt see it all
til i saw it all in me
when i saw it in you too
its nice to go away
its nice to stay away
but sometimes the day stays gray
and the blue shines in
to keep me back to basic

in my daydream
i thought i said goodbye
in my sleepwalking moment of clarity
i told you how sorry i was
that i put you through the pain
i put you through

its better this way
to say goodbye this way
its better to say
we had good times
we had our nice nights
but it still gets lonely as hell
living in this skin of mine
thats why i need to say
goodbye this time

May 2008