but baby we all make mistakes
and i am no exception to that rule
and we all have our faults
and we all have our times
when we just need to breathe
and i hope that you get happy
cause i dont wanna see you sad
and i hope you still love me
even when times get bad
cause baby i still love you
even when i am lost
even when i am confused
and time stands still for me
when i cant see what i need
but we always do need
and we always will need
each other to be there
cause youre my best friend
and i want you to be happy
i want you to know
that youre always in my heart
even when i am lost
confused at where i need to go
where i need to be
forgive me for not knowing
what i want
what i need
at this time in my life
cause i love you
i cant stress that enough
just have a little patience, have a little heart for me
trust me cause i trust in you
************
this is not what i expected
you trying to tame my heart with your words
the sincerity in your eyes
the smile in your voice
i didnt know you thought so highly of me
i live down by the ocean
and its nice at nite to lie on the sand
stare at the stars
my body surrenderring to your hand
but dreams seem to stay
just what they are
dreams
in my head at nite baby
and thats not what i expected
dreams turning my head
from you my darling
dreams making remarks
your voice laughing once more
smiles coming from your end of the line
thats what i need tonite
and i live
at the end
of a long lost line of thoughts
that keep spinning
and if i cant get them to stop
wont you take me down
and tell me what to do
and its 3am and i am still awake
taking my time to sleep
cause it wont happen any other way
this is just not my day
cant you see
my body longs for more than i can give it
the sleep just wont come
**********
well its two in the morning
and here i am alone again
with me and me and my thoughts
what am i gonna do with myself
if i am to be here one more second
with the cool breeze and full moon
i wish the ocean were my backyard
cause i dont need to be here anymore
i think i need a vacation
a new religion
a new location to call my own
i wish i could hide my anger
the way you can
i would be a better person
if i could just figure out myself
and not underestimate who i am
but to hell with all that
i am who i am
and if its not who i should be
then i guess i should be sorry
that i am not the person
i was never born to be
but sorry is all i ever am
and i need to get off that high
i think i need a new identity
to call my own for a while
to disappear into myself
i think its time i went away
got myself the help i need
when all i need is to be
what i am missing
***********
watched you pull up to me
"what have you been waiting on?"
i heard you ask
simple but true
i dont even know
so lets go
you and your plastic jesus
and my mirrorball state
we dont seem to get too far
but we sure have fun
now dont we
stuck tight next to you
"where are we going tonite?"
i heard myself ask
easy but right
you dont even know
so lets just go out tonite
****************
she walked in the door to see him there
watching tv
it was just that one last straw
that she couldnt take
"i'm going out, do you need something?"
she asked as she grabbed her car keys
no response so she was out
that door so fast he never even heard it shut
"its time i get away,
time to run away and leave him and this town."
she told the mirror as she pulled away
to somewhere she didnt know
the bank gave her what she needed
the station all the gas she could take
she hit that highway so fast
she didnt even look back
it was time to get away
from all that she could soon erase
7:27
she heard the man on the radio say
well its time he noticed she was away
when she wasnt there to fix him what he needed
when he needed to eat
she only smiled at the setting sun
and laughed at the man
sitting watching her tv
needing her when she no longer needed him
there went three years down the drain today
maybe when he sees her face
in a hollywood rememberance
on a movie screen, picture scene
he'll realize she just isnt there anymore
and he'll find someone new
all poetry, all words, written and copyrighted by me, this girl, C53,
and lets keep it that way!