i got talk shows on tv
and talk shows on the radio
i got a window open in my room
and the air on in the other
i got the kitchen sink runnin
without the drain
whats the point?
i dont know
why the kids runnin round
in no clothes
and theres a mouse on the floor
eating cheerios
with my cat watchin the birds outside
you look at me and you see me
sittin at the sewin machine
makin sumthin for my dog
who freezes outside
where could you be?
i dont see you in the crowd
i got the gospel on my records
and the hard rock on my cd’s
i got self help tapes on cassette
whats with that?
and who are you?
i got the calendar on the wrong month
and the alarm set for yesterday
i got money spread around the house
and the car on in the driveway
i got a snowman in the yard
i drive a cab
but you havent called for one yet
where could you be at?
i didnt see you at the zoo
watching the lions eat their meat
i didnt see you at the museum either
where could you be?
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last nite i had a dream
you came to me and held me in your arms
it felt so nice to be back
the way it use to be
you whispering in my ear
can you hear
my heart beating next to yours
in sync with your soul
its nice to see your face again
i missed you so
and can you feel
my hands touching your body
this is the way it should be
i dont want you to ever leave again
but when i get lonely
i lay awake and dream
that you are here
telling me
that there is more to love than just dreams
that theres more to believe in
than just what is there
that what you cant touch
may just be what you need
and love will always prevail
wherever you are think of me
and even when the nite is long
its long for someone else too
and not just you or me
and tears that fall they always dry
you just dont know why
the rain seemed to fall
and its always cold where i lay
unless you're there to keep me warm
cant you come and keep me warm
and talk to me until i sleep
i think thats just what i need
***************
Can you handle
tip my head to the sky
asked myself why
cant i be that perfect star up there
that everyone gazes at
singing
starlight starbright
first star i see tonite
i wish i may
i wish i might
have this wish i wish tonite
looked down at the sand
asked myself how can
i survive the crashing waves
that wash this sand away
without washing me away too
mirror mirror on the wall
who's the fairest one of all
look at me
its not me
cause i am such a mess
i can obsess i must confess
just dont obsess over me
cause baby i already got you down pat
so how is that?
look to my left and to my right
all i can see is the desert in my sight
asked myself which way do i go
whats the best
here or there
near or far
where you are
this or that
how bout that
take it or leave it
love me or hate me
whats it gonna be?
can you handle my desires
can you handle my fears
can you handle all the love in my tears
can you love me
for me and not what you need
can you handle the insanities that i bring
coffee or tea?
baby, black or cream?
me or
me
***************
i thought i heard your whispers
last nite in my dream
and the reflection of your face looked
right back at me it seemed
i was sleeping when i thought i was awake
but i know i heard your voice
and i saw your face
all those echoes are starting to scare me
this is not what i wanted
this is not where i need to be
in a hall of mirrors
with a glass of champagne
hello are you still there?
i can taste your skin
and smell that scent
it was me running on the horizon
running after you
thats all i seem to do these days
this is not what i wanted
this is not where i should be
in a house of horrors
with a bag of popcorn
you ran away but you are still here
my memory isnt as bad as you think
it was just last month you were there
telling me its all a dream
and someday you shall return to me
well this is what i want
this is where you have to be
in my arms in my bed
with our blanket of desire
***************
took myself down to the oceanside
had a bottle of wine
with a blanket of stars and seashells
waiting on him as he takes his time
but he can take all the time he needs
cause right now all these stars
just happen to be what i need too
if i could get outta this skin
then i think i would take a ride
down to the corner for a margarita
dont talk to me
cause when you do
you tend to linger
and i dont need that right now
took myself to the aquarium to see
all the sweet surrenders that are there for me
swirling colors fading into one another
blue lights turning me to dust
i knew i had to get outta there
the laughter was just too much for me
if i could get outta this skin
then i would spread my wings
and fly across this indian summer sun
maybe you should talk to me
cause when you do
you tend to melt me away
and i need that right now
took myself to the desert
thought maybe i could get a glimpse of the future
if i stepped into the past
but all i saw were the clouds
covering the marble sky
and all i could think
was he needs his time
but maybe so do i
and i know
if i could get outta this skin
i would shed the memories i have of me
and send them to the moon
cause theres no one on the moon
and thats just where i need to be
right now
so talk to me
i may not be your beauty queen anymore
but at least we can still smile
and thats what we both need right now
while we take up all the space needed
all poetry, all words, written and copyrighted by me, this girl, C53,
and lets keep it that way!